I'm the shit!!!!

Ok! So I'm feeling my self right now!!! I got a Job!!! A job that I actually like! Is so hard! It's worth it though because I have great co-workers.Working is actually making me feel better about my self, because when I wasnt working, I felt like shit, I felt like I had no purpose what so ever, and I will find out in september whether or not I'm going to school this semester(cross your fingers). I cant wait till I can go about my BUSINESS!! Not having to worry about anything!!! I'm starting to not worrie about guys that much anymore! I know, finally. The only reason why i was really worried about them was because of my break-up, plus the fact that I'm in a totally different state, and have no friends and I was feeling like I NEEDED some one. But now I realize that I'm the SHIT

Destined to be single!

Ok....so i dont really like anyone im talking to at the moment! either their to sensitive, dumb as a box of rocks, ugly or old as hell!! Whats up with that?

To be or not to be?

WELL I JUST MET THIS GUY!!! I KNOW YOU GUYS ARE LIKE ANOTHER ONE!! BUT I THINK ITS FOR REAL THIS TIME, HE SEEMS REALLY GENUINE ABOUT HIS FEELINGS, BUT I THINK HE IS FALLING FOR ME TO FAST!!! HE'S GETTING ME ALL EXCITED ABOUT HIM AND I FEEL LIKE WHEN HE GETS TO KNOW ME MORE HE WONT FEEL THE SAME, THEN ILL BE LEFT FEELING DUMB, BUT WE WILL SEEN ONLY TIME WILL TELL.......

DATING SO FAR......SUCKS!!!!

OK, SO IVE BEEN HERE FOR LIKE TWO MONTHS AND HAVE YET TO FIND ANYONE THAT REALLY INTERESTS ME AND WHEN I DO THEY ARE ASSHOLES OF COURSE, HERE IS AN IN DEPTH DESCRIPTION OF WHAT BEEN GOING ON.....NAMES HAVE BEEN CHANGED TO PRIVACY LMFAO

DATE #1: A

I MET HIM AT A CLUB HERE, I WAS DANCING AND ALL OF A SUDDEN HE STARTED MAKING FUN OF MY DANCE! I FELT INSULTED AND EMBARASSED SO I MEAN MUGGED HIM AND CONTINUED WHAT I WAS DOING, THEN HE CAME UP TO ME AND ASKED TO BUY ME A DRINK.....OF COURSE I SAID YES, AND I ENDED UP GIVING HIM MY NUMBER......MY COUSIN AND I ENDED UP GETTING TICKETS FOR A COMEDY SHOW................AND THE BOY WHO I ORIGINALLY ASKED (WHO I MET AT ANOTHER CLUB)...HAD SOMETHING GOING ON SO I CALLED A. WE HAD A WHOLE LITTLE THING PLANNED OUT WHERE WE WOULD GO EAT FIRST AND GET DRINKS BEFORE WE WENT TO THE SHOW...............BUT OF COURSE THIS FOOL DIDNT MAKE IT BECAUSE HE WAS STUCK IN TRAFFIC............WHEN WE FINALLY GOT THE THE COMEDY SHOW HE CALLED AND SAID HE WAS CLOSE AND TO STAND OUT SIDE.......HE TOLD ME TO LOOK FOR A VW BEETLE!!!!.......SO IM LOOKING AROUND EVERYWHERE AND DONT SEE ONE.....THEN HE SAYS IM IN FRONT OF YOU.......THIS FOOL WAS IN A BMW...I DIDNT KNOW WEATHER TO FEEL EXCITED OR PISSED....EXCITED CAUSE IT WAS A HOT CAR.....PISSED BECAUSE I FELT LIKE HE WAS TESTING ME LIKE I WOULD USE HIM FOR HIS MONEY OR SOMETHING!!.....ANY WAY TO MAKE A LONG STORY LONGER....WHEN HE WAS TAKING ME HOME......WE ENDED UP PASSING MY HOUSE AND ENDING UP THE THE GEORGE WASHINGTON BRIDGE....I SHOULD HAVE BEEN SCARED BUT I JUST FELT SO COMFORTABLE AROUND HIM....SO WE ENDED GOING TO HIS HOUSE, WHICH WAS REALLY NICE, WE TALKED ABOUT EVERYTHING AND LISTENED TO MUSIC....IT WAS SO ROMANTIC TO ME!!! HE LIVED IN JERSEY!!!....WHEN WE GOT TO HIS BEDROOM WE JUST LAYED ON THE BED AND TALKED UNTIL LIKE 6 IN THE MORNING...NO SEX!! ON THE WAY HOME HE HELD MY HAND....HE SEEMED SO SWEET AND ROMANTIC AT FIRST!!!!.........BUT THAT WASNT THE CASE........TURNED OUT TO BE A COCKY, SCUMBAG, ASSHOLE.....BUT FOR SOME REASON I MISS HIM.

DATE #2: B

I MET HIM THROUGH A FRIEND. HE IS A SWEET HEART!!BUT I FEEL LIKE I JUST DONT FEEL THAT SPARK OR ANYTHING WITH HIM! WE WENT TO THE MOVIES AND OUT TO EAT, BUT I DIDNT GET ANY BUTTERFLIES OR ANYTHING!! I WANT BUTTERFLIES!!!!

DATE #3: C

I MET HIM AT MACY'S IN THE POLO SECTION!!! HE SHOWED ME HOW TO GET TO THE ELEVATOR LOL, AND HE ASKED ME ON A DATE. WE DECIDED TO MEET IN TIMES SQUARE.....HE WAS LIKE 20 MINUTES LATE, ACTUALLY 40 IF YOU COUNT ME 20 MIN LATE LOL! WHEN HE CAME TO ME, HE WAS SOOO NERVOUS!!!! AND I WAS LIKE WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT CONFIDENT GUY FROM THE OTHER DAY!!! WE ENDED UP GOING TO APPLE BEE'S. WHEN WE GOT THERE, HE ASKED FOR A PLASTIC FORK, I THOUGHT THAT WAS CRAZY!!! BUT THEN HE EXPLAINED TO ME ABOUT HOW UNSANITARY IT WAS TO EAT ON THERE FORKS. AFTER DINNER HE FINALLY LOOSENED UP AND WE DECIDED TO GO SEE TRANSFORMERS (WHICH WAS REALLY GOOD). AFTER THE MOVIES WE STOOD ON THE ROOF AND TOOK PICTURES AND WE HAD ALOT OF FUN. BUT AGAIN HE DOESNT GIVE ME THAT SPARK!!!